Tea Time of Incredible Curiousities by Hiromi Sato
I’m sitting in an amazing house in Taos, NM currently, with a fur blanket and a huge flatscreen, and life is good.
But for some reason, I feel unsettled. I’ve held onto something for too long that never existed in the first place, and I’ve tried everything to remedy that.
There’s something about the travel experience that makes me extremely nostalgic. To be one person in one place and the same person in another… it’s a very hard concept to grasp.
This nostalgia is kind of like deja vu- when you wake up from a dream that you swear you had before, and you find yourself missing something that never existed to begin with. You know what I’m talking about? It’s almost like an ache, but you can’t pinpoint the origin or the cause. An itch that can’t be scratched. A hunger that can’t be satisfied.
I know a lot of this has to do with perspective, and it seems that the more I try to change my perspective, the more it goes in a direction that i am not happy with.
New Years resolution: be more present. That’s really the only way to be satisfied.
Ten Things To Do When You Feel Like Crap:
1. Have a really hot, long shower. Cry if you need to. Sit on the ground. Feel sorry for yourself. Let the steam soak into your skin. Let the hot water wash your face clean. But the moment you turn off that water, you are done feeling sorry for yourself. Make a decision to move on from that sadness.
2. Clean. I know, cleaning is boring and annoying - but how about that feeling you get when you are finished? The smell of the vacuum. That feeling of accomplishment? Who knows, you might even find money along the way. Totally worth it. It’s like starting with a clean slate.
3. Call a friend you haven’t spoken to for a while. If your first choice doesn’t pick up, choose someone else. Ask them all about how their lives are going and tell them about yours. Not only will it take your mind off whatever crappy thing you have been plagued by, but you will laugh with them! Laughing triggers endorphins and endorphins make you happy!
4. Go for a run or a walk. This get’s your endorphins and dopamine going crazy. You will get more energy and more happiness just because the chemicals in your body are running around!
5. Stop and take it all in. Walking in the night? Stop and look at the stars. Breathe in the cold air. Feel alive.
6. Stop whining. Ever heard the saying “love life and life will love you back”? Or, the idea of the power of attraction? It’s true! If you sit around saying “why me, waaaaa waaaa” then bad things will happen to you. You’re already defeated. If you start saying, “I will be happy, I will accomplish my ambitions, I will find love, I do look amazing, I am a great friend” etc., then not only will you start to believe them but you will be amazed at what amazing things start to happen.
7. Drink tea. This always works. Not a tea fan? Try hot water with a slice of lemon and some agave syrup.
8. Make a conscious decision to stop holding certain grudges. We all have people we have held grudges on in the past. Let them go. If you feel like you owe this person an apology, don’t be too proud. Send them a sincere facebook apology. Sincerity is in the intent, so even if it’s a 2 sentence apology - as long as you mean it it’s worth it.
9. Cook some really nice, warm food. Stimulate your taste buds with anything as simple as two minute noodles or as lavish as a three course garlic bread, pasta bake, chocolate mousse triple combo.
10. Write down a list of goals to achieve for the week. As simple as “buy insect repellent” or as large as “jog for 25 minutes non stop” and tick them off when they’re done. You will feel very accomplished and that alone will help pep up your mood!
How hard would you try to win someone’s heart?
I’ve always been a fool for love. I won’t deny it. I think it’s the best thing in the world- the most inspiring thing to write about, especially in my songs. But recently I’ve begun to think about what’s best for me and I have a small problem. Here it is.
Since moving to New York I’ve already been on both sides- getting bored in a situation and ducking out, or being too into it and ducking out. Every time I actively decide to stop dating and focus on my music, someone comes along and fucks it all up. Dating in New York is weird. I’m pretty sure anyone who lives here will agree with that statement.
But recently I found myself in a situation where I started trying hard to compensate for the other person in making plans and even though this hasn’t been going on for very long… I woke up today and started to think to myself: when did I become THAT person?
Sure, it’s fun to be pursued, but is it really fun to be the pursuer, either? In a place like New York City… is there ever really a balance?